Lately I've been feeling very, very lonely, like I'm actually the only person in my life. It's not like I don't talk to my friends or anything, it's just that I don't connect with what anybody's saying anymore.It's even worse with strangers, I barely feel like making an effort to get to know them. I'm sick of saying 'oh hey I'm so and so from so and so...blah blah blah' NEEEEXXT.
I'm just Tom Hanks in Castaway, just wait, I'll be talking to a football before you know it. And then to make matters worse, I've been listening to Lifehouse (aka Emotional Suicide On A CD), so you can see why the skies have been looking stormy in the East lately.You know what I feel like, I feel like Calvin ( from the cartoon strip) sitting all alone on this gorgoeous alien planet, on the edge of a cliff throwing rocks at the twin moons.
All by MAAAAAAAAAHHHHH SSSSSEEELLLLLLFFFFFF!!!!!
I'm gonna be, all by MAAAAAAAAAHHHH SEEELLLLLFFFFFF.
Oh God, now I'm morphing into Bridget Jones.
PS-In more exciting news, I watched Troy last week, (good god Brad Pitt), and classes are starting on Thursday.
Monday, June 28, 2004
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
GAMES PEOPLE PLAY
If there's ONE thing i really hate ( apart from Banana's) its the games people play. Infuriating. Like buddy, get over yourself already, I'm NOT interesting in having a who's-more-disinterested contest here. Hell I was actually even trying to be a doormat for a while. Stupid, stupid me.
You know thats what I've learnt about friends, if you ever wonder why someone who supposedly cared about you is behaving like a total jerk, ask them why and if there's no good reason, just screw it man. Hello, I have better things to do with my time, and if I have to be wondering whats going on every five minutes, then its not worth it, and if someone doesn't want to keep in touch, then there was no real friendship there anyway.
Whatever.
See, see THIS is what happens when your best friend moves to another freaking country!(FOR DOOKU:but it's not her I'm mad at,its just that i have no one to talk to, thats all)You start putting crap up on the freaking internet!why ?why?WHY?
I think I'll go before I say something even more ridiculous.
You know thats what I've learnt about friends, if you ever wonder why someone who supposedly cared about you is behaving like a total jerk, ask them why and if there's no good reason, just screw it man. Hello, I have better things to do with my time, and if I have to be wondering whats going on every five minutes, then its not worth it, and if someone doesn't want to keep in touch, then there was no real friendship there anyway.
Whatever.
See, see THIS is what happens when your best friend moves to another freaking country!(FOR DOOKU:but it's not her I'm mad at,its just that i have no one to talk to, thats all)You start putting crap up on the freaking internet!why ?why?WHY?
I think I'll go before I say something even more ridiculous.
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
HAVING A BATH
So you wake up one partly cloudy tuesday morning ( after having watched a kick ass football match the previous night, in which England kicked Croatia's butt 4-2!actually they were both fighting hard, gotta give Croatia their props) and think you'll get out of bed and have a nice refreshing shower, then saunter downstairs and impress everyone (meaning the dog) by looking refreshed and confident.HAH! Think again.
Life, has other plans.Life,has decided, in it's typically inconsiderate and authoritarian manner, that it shall do exactly what it wishes with your seemingly unremarkable partly cloudy tuesday, and do so without giving you any prior notice.
'Semi Charmed Kind Of Life' by 3rd eye Blind starts to play on the Worldspace, and you think ah...yes, now is a good time to get up, haul yourself out of bed, turn on the geyser and brush your teeth, wash up blah blah, make the bed. the water must be warm by now, you say to yourself, turn on the shower step in and its freezing.
What the hell?Maybe it's broken.Ok never mind you step out of the shower wrap yourself in a towel and potter around aimlessly.
The water HAS to be hot now. Try again.Still subzero.
You check the geyser switch and bloody hell -it isnt even on.(No doubt the work of the friendly poltergeist that lives under my toilet cause i SWEAR to heaven , i turned the thing on)Potter aimlessly once again and finally manage to have a decent hot shower, though by this time exhaustion has set in, and all hope of actually impressing a certain fox terrier with clean and rejuvinated appearance has faded.
It was just one of those mornings, and it took me half an hour to decide what to wear, cause the mood of the day hadn't struck me, so i threw clothes all over the place, and now I have a killer mess to clean up, when I get back home.sigh. I consoled myself by having a hearty breakfast of Orange Juice and an Oreo cookie.(note: go to grocery store and buy Frosties)
Then I went to the doctor and got a medical check up done.They won't let me into law school without it, apparently if I fall terminally ill, the tiny little campus clinic will leaf through my medical history so that they can use the vast supply of band aids that they have to save my life.(heh heh, sense of humour is till intact. its a good sign)
Now I'm just waiting for the bloody day to end so as I can run off to the Adidas and Weekenders 50% off sale.Yay! I think a little time with my girlfriends in Barista wouldn't hurt either.
God, when you're leaving things just start to speed up.So much to do, to pack, to buy, so many good byes to say.Everything seems like such a big blur. I still haven't figured out how I'm going to lug my guitar around.I think I have to get a hard case.See there's another thing I have to do.
I'm going nuts I tell you! Since I'm not doing anything productive anyway, I think I'll go make a list of all the things I have to do tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a day of things accomplished with clinical precision.Clinical!You here me shower?!?Clinical!
Hey has anyone heard that new Dave Matthews song 'Oh'?I love it.It makes me want to cry whenever I hear it. that Dave Matthews has one hell of a nice voice.
Life, has other plans.Life,has decided, in it's typically inconsiderate and authoritarian manner, that it shall do exactly what it wishes with your seemingly unremarkable partly cloudy tuesday, and do so without giving you any prior notice.
'Semi Charmed Kind Of Life' by 3rd eye Blind starts to play on the Worldspace, and you think ah...yes, now is a good time to get up, haul yourself out of bed, turn on the geyser and brush your teeth, wash up blah blah, make the bed. the water must be warm by now, you say to yourself, turn on the shower step in and its freezing.
What the hell?Maybe it's broken.Ok never mind you step out of the shower wrap yourself in a towel and potter around aimlessly.
The water HAS to be hot now. Try again.Still subzero.
You check the geyser switch and bloody hell -it isnt even on.(No doubt the work of the friendly poltergeist that lives under my toilet cause i SWEAR to heaven , i turned the thing on)Potter aimlessly once again and finally manage to have a decent hot shower, though by this time exhaustion has set in, and all hope of actually impressing a certain fox terrier with clean and rejuvinated appearance has faded.
It was just one of those mornings, and it took me half an hour to decide what to wear, cause the mood of the day hadn't struck me, so i threw clothes all over the place, and now I have a killer mess to clean up, when I get back home.sigh. I consoled myself by having a hearty breakfast of Orange Juice and an Oreo cookie.(note: go to grocery store and buy Frosties)
Then I went to the doctor and got a medical check up done.They won't let me into law school without it, apparently if I fall terminally ill, the tiny little campus clinic will leaf through my medical history so that they can use the vast supply of band aids that they have to save my life.(heh heh, sense of humour is till intact. its a good sign)
Now I'm just waiting for the bloody day to end so as I can run off to the Adidas and Weekenders 50% off sale.Yay! I think a little time with my girlfriends in Barista wouldn't hurt either.
God, when you're leaving things just start to speed up.So much to do, to pack, to buy, so many good byes to say.Everything seems like such a big blur. I still haven't figured out how I'm going to lug my guitar around.I think I have to get a hard case.See there's another thing I have to do.
I'm going nuts I tell you! Since I'm not doing anything productive anyway, I think I'll go make a list of all the things I have to do tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a day of things accomplished with clinical precision.Clinical!You here me shower?!?Clinical!
Hey has anyone heard that new Dave Matthews song 'Oh'?I love it.It makes me want to cry whenever I hear it. that Dave Matthews has one hell of a nice voice.
Saturday, June 05, 2004
GO TO FIJI
If you know whats good for you, you'll pick your ass up and get on the next plane to Fiji.I had so much fun, so much fun. Ok it's not like I've never had fun before, but with all the work and pressure that life has been dumping on me, this vacation was exactly what I needed. I feel happy and refreshed, I discovered the joys of Board Shorts and Kahluas and Kayaking, and I've come back tanned and relaxed, ready to plunge headfirst into my life again and just dying to vanquish the demons that dare to cross my path.
Ok, maybe I shouldn't be tempting fate quite so much. Lets say I'm ready to calmly discuss my views with the demons and see if an amicable solution can't be reached.
Plus I revised my PLAN. You know THE plan, for life in general, and I've adjusted somethings to incorporate more frivolous activity and misbehaviour. Sigh.............nice big happy sigh. Not that everything is all sunshine and rainbows, there are still things to deal with, but I think I can deal with them now, won't be too much fun, but atleast I feel better about it all now. I can handle it, I'll come out alive.
At first I was afraid I was petrified.......etc etc
This is me singing on the internet.
It'll all be fine in the end.
Can everyone say BULA!!
Ok, maybe I shouldn't be tempting fate quite so much. Lets say I'm ready to calmly discuss my views with the demons and see if an amicable solution can't be reached.
Plus I revised my PLAN. You know THE plan, for life in general, and I've adjusted somethings to incorporate more frivolous activity and misbehaviour. Sigh.............nice big happy sigh. Not that everything is all sunshine and rainbows, there are still things to deal with, but I think I can deal with them now, won't be too much fun, but atleast I feel better about it all now. I can handle it, I'll come out alive.
At first I was afraid I was petrified.......etc etc
This is me singing on the internet.
It'll all be fine in the end.
Can everyone say BULA!!
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