25 Things About Me

1. I am a terribly insecure person.I know the kind of person I want to be, but constantly see myself falling short.
2. I am very very scared of being alone, but have written off humanity as being able to provide an antidote.
3. I really hate toe nails that are even slightly long, and trim mine once a week.
4. All my best friends are people who never judge me, or if they do, they do it quietly and where I can't hear them and I really appreciate it.
5. I firmly believe in second chances and can be very smug about how forgiving I am.
6. When I was a kid my parents lied to me and told me that the only channel on TV was public broadcasting and if I pressed any other button on the remote the TV would explode.
7. I thought my father was actually a Magician till I was 8.
8. I will always love my grandfather, wish he was around and feel cheated by the fact that he's not.
9. I never take anyone else's opinion on music and believe that my judgement is perfect.
10. I've always wished I could dance and be athletic.
11. I hate it when people interrupt me when I'm reading anything. Even a note.
12. I worry that I will never have a flat stomach.
13. I wish that my hair would set itself automatically every day, but because it doesn't I choose not to comb it.
14. I was easily bullied as a child and am still proud that I have grown out of it.
15. I can't walk straight, I always bang into whoever is walking beside me.
16. I do not like most fruits, because I think they're undependable and might always be squishy and disgusting on the inside. I also do not like ice cream.
17. I use clothes and food to get myself out of a bad mood all the time.
18. I love to swim but am very very scared of the sea and big waves or fast moving water.
19. I detest being told what to do and nine times out of ten will do the exact opposite just because someone has told me to do something.
20. I really like people. It gives me a kick to get to know new people, especially those whom I think I will have nothing in common with or whom most people do not seem to be fond of.
21. I am very proud of my sense of humour despite being repeatedly told that I do not have one.
22. I over analyze situations.
23. I always wish I had a sibling because siblings always have this cool 'family secrets' and 'inside jokes' thing happening that I wish I could have.
24. My spellings are really horrendous. I could not spell medieval till I was 18.
25. I once got into a bad accident, and was most worried that above all things I might die a virgin.

On a cold and foggy morning,
The man Jack makes his fern tapestries on the glass
Swirling leaves do a flamenco, carry my head with them.
And I wonder why I'm even awake.

I look out on a cold and foggy morning,
And some desire causes me to reach for this device,
to maybe write a symphony to this beautiful painting, framed so nicely by my window.
But there are no words really, just a vague feeling that there is something to say.