BLURRY

Reaching milestones in your life, really makes you think about where you are, what you're doing, how you got there, and stuff. It's a nice, pleasant feeling when you can look at it all go, 'Hey I turned out OK'.
It also makes you realise HOW MUCH time has actually gone by. I mean when you're young, life just sort of stretches before you like one big, unending expanse, thats never supposed to end. You feel like you'll be young forever, and that time will just pass you by.
When I was in junior school, it felt like school life would just stretch on endlessly, and that I would NEVER grow up.Then when I got to high school, it began to occur to me, that maybe just maybe, I'd be done with it all, and actually move on to college. High school was a time of constant change for me, each of those four years taught me something else, and I seriously truly began to become me. By 12th grade, I was all set to move on, I mean I could almost taste the freedom and the happiness( yes I hated my school, not my friends, just my school), but even then I just assumed that the school part of my life would go fast,a nd then once I got into college , things would just sssssllllloooooowwwww down, and I'd be in college for ages. I'd never actually move past it, I'd never actually get a job. Still seems ridiculous to me.
But now I'm in, and I know it hasnt been long, but it feels like its going super fast.I can already see the end of the semester.God. Its scary.
To think that your whole life is just gonna move by this fast. I feel like before I know it, I'll be getting old and looking back instead of looking forward, and then I'll see all the time I had, and how I let it just slip through my fingers without doing half the things I wanted to do, or seeing half the things I was supposed to see. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!
Ok, breathe, breathe, exhale.
Heh heh.
I'm calm now. But seriously, it really really makes you think.
I hope I know what I'm doing, and I hope that I'm making the best out of my circumstances.
Suddenly I'm filled withy the urge to go to the library and read twenty pages of Jurisprudence. How long will the feeling last, I wonder........